Tomorrow I turn 21.

In all honesty, that’s kind of daunting.

Tomorrow I enter into the "grown-up" world. (Not that twenty-one is all that grown up anyway…)

Yet, it’s still a daunting thought. I’m (dare I say it?) just a little scared.

You know, this reminds me of some advice I shared with the second years from CMF at the beginning of their dissection block. It pretty much represents my thinking on this topic. So, in the spirit of "practice what you preach, Renate" I’m going to share it with you and hope that by so doing I knock it into my own thick skull.

Part of what makes dissection block so intimidating is all the rumours and stories about it. From Day One of med school, everybody hears how tough this block is.

I remember wondering if I would be able to make it through the seven weeks without having a nervous breakdown or something! Would I be able to cope with the workload? The emotional baggage? The long hours?

I didn’t think I was up for the task…

This is why dissection block always makes me think of Moses.

So, here’s Moses, wandering around in the desert with his bunch of sheep, and he comes across this burning bush that’s not burning up! And that’s not all – out of the bush, God speaks to him! He tells Moses that it’s his job to go speak to Pharaoh so that the Israelites can leave Egypt and travel to the promised land.

But Moses is scared and overwhelmed. Just like us, he doesn’t think he’s up for the job. He makes excuses.

So God gives him some signs. His staff becomes a snake, his hand becomes leprous and the water of the Nile becomes blood when poured out on the ground.

Yet, Moses is still frightened, so he makes another excuse.

And amazingly, God is patient. He promises Moses that He will go with his mouth and teach him what to speak.

Still Moses avoids the issue. He’s still looking for a way out! Eventually he bluntly says: “Oh my Lord, please send someone else.”

Now, I don’t know about you, but if a burning, speaking bush with God inside it told me to go do something, I would say “Yes Sir” and go do it! I wouldn’t push my luck trying to avoid the job!

Yet, Moses’ fear of the job overrides his fear of the burning bush and God! He must have been pretty scared…

What I find really amazing about Moses, though, is the fact that, once the Lord had organised Aaron to speak for him, he got on with it and did the job. Together with Aaron, he went and spoke to the Pharaoh. He lead the Israelites out of Egypt. He crossed the Red Sea as God held open the waters. He was used by god to perform miracles. He became the leader of a bitter, disobedient people. That doesn’t sound like a walk in the park to me!

Isn’t it incredible how Moses changed from a scared, tongue-tied young man into a leader of an entire nation, and a man of God!

Listen to what God says about Moses in Hebrews 11:23-29. “

And then, only a couple of verses later, we are told to follow his example! (Heb 12:1+2)

God gave Moses miracles and promises when He sent Moses out to do his job.

And God has given us the miracle of Jesus Christ the author and perfecter of our faith, who endured the cross for us.

He’s given us promises: He will not let us be stretched beyond what we can bear… He hasn’t given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power and of sound mind… He will never leave us, nor forsake us… With my Lord, I can scale a mountain, I can jump a wall… They who wait on the Lord will renew their strength, they will mount up with wings like eagles… He is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear?

Yes, the Lord puts tasks in our way that sometimes look overwhelming.

But He also gives us the assurance that we don’t have to do it alone.

One of my friends asked about my blog the other day. She remarked that she was beginning to worry that my brain really WAS fried.

Well, I’m here to disprove that. My brain isn’t that fried. Sort of. Not really. Totally.

(And I’m definitely not hearing any sizzling noises. None whatsoever.)

Anyway, I’m back, and I promise not to run off again. After all, you’ve missed out on the entire five-week cardiology block that is now safely agter die rug. It would be terrible if you missed any more of third year. Even more terrible if it’s my faut that you’re missing it…

Suffice it to say: So far, third year has been great!

The more I learn, the more interested I become, and the more I want to learn. It’s a good type of vicious cycle. I can live with that… :)

Apparently the temperature today was in the region of 36 or 37 degrees Celsius…

My sister and I were joking that if we were in Germany, we would probably have Schulfrei.

I can understand why.

My. Brain. Is. Fried.

I looked at the date of my last post and realised that if I waited another four days, then I would have been absent from this blog for a month exactly.

Which would be a pity.

So here I am. Yup, li’l ole me and my jumbled thoughts! (Don’t say you haven’t been warned.)

1. On Friday I will no longer be a second year medical student. I also won’t really be a third year yet. When I was a Brownie we used to call the transition stage “being a Tweenie.” That is, in this case, ‘tween not being a 3rd year and being a 3rd year. Holidays begin on Friday. I’m going to get a (holiday) job.

2. The last two weeks felt like the holidays had already started. Two weeks organised by the department of family medicine. It was pretty chilled.

3. Unfortunately, this last week of second year is not organised by said department of family medicine. We’ll be doing Pharmacology. Even worse, for some weird reason, this week’s marks count for a block in fifth year. No one knows why… We are all simply miserably conscious of the fact that this week will come back to bite us in the ass at some point in the distant future.

4. My brain hasn’t picked up on the fact that it should have switched on again by this point. It’s still in hibernation.

5. I went sailing today. There wasn’t much wind, but it was lovely and relaxing. My little sister did all the hard work – steering and trying to figure out where the wind was – while I lazily dangled my feet in the water or took a snooze. And she was fine with that arrangement… (At least, I think she was!)

6. I made a quilt in the two weeks of family medicine chilledness. When I can find some batteries that work, I will take pictures and show you the magnificence. It makes me happy every time I look at the quilt. *Insert satisfied grin here*

7. I have made a couple more Skill Builder Sampler blocks. Ditto above regarding photos. I’m looking forward to sewing a cute little house. Maybe after the pharmacology madness. Sigh.

8. The Nanowrimo website resets tomorrow!!! *Insert super-excited face here!*

Have you ever been frustrated by a lecturer who simply reads his/her lecture notes instead of actually… you know… lecturing?

Well, sometimes it’s worse when they don’t read the notes off!

Lecturer:

Finally, the take home message!

Will you remember these three things?

Be wise

Condomise

Circumcise

and Moralise!

Genius…

Lecturer: I’m not going to tell you the spelling because I want you to go and read up about it. Yersinia Y. E. R. S. I. N. I. A

(All that without even a pause to take a breath.)

I’m studying the slide show of example test questions right now.

The first 5 slides are all about malaria!

And there is another slide devoted to malaria thrown in half way through the slide show. Just to make sure we don’t miss the message.

Sooo…

I guess malaria is important then?

I have actually been doing something since I last linked up with WIP Wednesday at Freshly Pieced.

Most of what I have been doing has involved this:

Don’t you just love the look of this rabid dog?

I have been doing some of this:

And also a little bit of this!

Finally I’ve made another Skill Builder Sampler block. And I’m even halfway through a third one! (At this rate I might just manage to finish the quilt along before I graduate from med school…)

Of course, it’s not my Work in Progress, but I have to share this photo with you!

SUMMER IS HERE!!!

I love how suddenly the seasons change here in South Africa. One day it was still cold and wintery and the next day summer was here! Amazing!

I could start this post off with an oh-so-cliche apology for having neglected this blog for almost two weeks. (Gasp!)

But I’m not going to.

You know why?

Because I’d much rather start it off with a lovely big thank you to all my readers! (That would be you…)

Thank you!

Here’s why:

Look at that lovely graph! I may not have blogged in close on two weeks, but still you’re here. You’re still interested enough to pop by and see if I’m still alive and still blogging.

Thank you.

You know, it would be nice if I were always here, always blogging about something new and always happy and positive.

Sometimes life doesn’t work like that.

You might have noticed that I haven’t been writing very much about Block 4. See, I don’t want to complain. I like to keep a positive outlook.

Sometimes that’s easier said than done.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not having second thoughts. I love what I’m studying! Medicine is endlessly fascinating and there is always something new to learn.

But that doesn’t mean that I have to love every fascet if this incredibly diverse field.

Frankly, apart from anatomy, second year has been a slog. It hasn’t been easy.

No-one said it would be.

If life was going to be easy, why would God command us to run with endurance? (Heb 12:1) If there was no temptation to be discouraged, he would not have needed to remind us to rejoice! (Phil 3:1)

Some days I feel like the psalmist – weary with moaning, flooded with tears. (Psa 6:6) It’s so easy to become overwhelmed. There is so much work, I struggle to study, I am exhausted, I find it difficult to interact with people, I don’t have time for this or for that…

Some days I forget that He has already done the work, and that all I need to do is stand. (Eph 6:14)

God is faithful and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but… he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Cor 10:13

“An enveloped virus is a virus with an envelope.” QUOTE UNQUOTE.

‘Nuff said.

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